What’s Happening to Me?

This is a hard thing for me to share, because 17 year olds don’t usually have these thoughts…  But well, here goes:

It started this year.  An irresistible urge to adopt 6 children and be a mom.

A cool mom.  The kind that is loving and nurturing, challenging and inspirational…

And then it hit me:  large families, like the Duggars, don’t eat great.  They buy subpar food in bulk and use styrofoam plates.  Both of my parents cook, I have high standards.  So I thought and thought.  And then I thought, if I grow my own organic food, then I can feed all my kids, and still eat well.

Howdy

So now I’m going to be a farmer.

Anyone know how I can become a farmer…?

Friday 21, June 2013

Feeling sore from dance class yesterday.  It’s so nice.

Adventures in Bugland

I went to register, and now, I am officially a Bardian!!  That means I’ll be a college student next fall.  It’s hard to believe…

Actually, yesterday, I was feeling quite overwhelmed about it all; graduating, having to learn to drive this summer, finding a job, taking 4 classes next semester…  What if all this work of applying was for naught?  What if I turned out to be a horrible college student?

And as I sat there wallowing in my hopelessness, I saw a little ant.  It was dragging along the carcass of another insect easily five times its size.  There was no anthill in site, so I assumed that that ant was going to have to keep dragging that other bug a looooong way.

But he didn’t seem tired, and he didn’t seem to be thing This is just too hard for me!  He kept at it.

So I decided that I should take after this ant, and follow his example.  I continued watching him, my admiration growing every minute, as he struggling but persevered, dragging his load over, under, and around many obstacles.

And then, he began to approach a grate.

As he did, I wondered if he knew that it was behind him.  But I had faith that he would have some strange insect intuition and figure how to overcome this next obstacle.  Unfortunately it was then that he dragged the corpse a little too close to one of the holes and it fell in.

At first it seemed like he would save it!  He was still holding on to it, but it was dangling down, and the weight was too much, so he dropped it.

He wandered away, sans cargo, looking very confused.

Sometimes you work really hard for something and you still don’t reach your goal.  Well, it was a metaphor, but not the one I was looking for!  Somehow it reassured me though.

Some people (me) just worry and worry.  But in the end, nothing is certain.

You just have to push forward into the unknown and hope for the best.

In The End

It’s that terrible time, where I must now turn down all colleges I won’t be attending.

And it’s hard because one of those colleges was actually my favorite.  But in the end, it’s what one can afford that determines one’s college decision.

Sure, I love the college that I am choosing (Bard) but I am also sad that I couldn’t accept the offer of my favorite college (Williams).  In my opinion, a college should not accept someone if they don’t meet that student’s financial need.  Crazy, I know.

I’m fine, though.  I’m at peace, and I am so happy and proud to have gotten into the colleges that I did.  Some people do not have that opportunity.

I also have the advantage of really knowing Bard from the inside, since I have been taking classes there for two years, and I am absolutely sure that I will get a pretty equal education to Williams (except without the name).  Williams also has a semester-at-sea program to which any undergraduate can apply, so I will definitely take advantage of that, hehehe.

I can’t wait to be a college student!!!

Peace,

~Pindari

Sorry…

What with exams and things, I haven’t been very active lately!

On the college horizon, I’ve been accepted to two of my favorite schools!

But I can’t talk now––Homework calls!

Peace,

~Pindari

Blessing in Disguise

Salvete Amici,

So today I got an email that began “We regret to inform you…”

And it turned out that I didn’t get into the summer vocal arts program I was hoping to. But you know what? I was kind of hoping that would happen.

Yeah, it was sad for a while, but the more I thought about it, the more I realized, that this was a good turn of events.

That program is seven weeks long, and now I’ll have more of the summer to chill, swim, and learn to drive.  I’ll also get to apply for a camp counselor job at amath camp which was at the same time.

Yays!  Not only that, but getting rejected from this camp (which was a super competitive camp anyway) will prepare me for colleges that reject me in the very near future.

Anyway.  Time to get back to studying :p

Peace,

~Pindari

Two More Colleges!

Woot!

I have 15 followers!!

Okay, that may not seem like a lot, but I feel like celebrating.

Especially since I haven’t heard back from colleges yet.  I know, I  know; I’m not even supposed to hear back until mid March, but it’s killing me!!

Oh, and I have some ideas for interesting posts, so keep your eyes peeled…  And tell me what you think about this new theme.  I’m just trying it out.

Until then, thanks for everything you guys!

Peace,

~Pindari

Take a Break

Almost as important as studying is taking a break.  Sometimes it’s great to just barrel through your homework until it’s done, but other times, breaks are necessary.  They keep you sane, and on occasion, they can stimulate the creative juices and improve further study.  Either way, it’s not healthy to be sitting in a chair hunched over work for three hours straight!  Walk it out!  Eat an orange!  Make some origami!  The only thing you should avoid is surfing the internet.  Like right now.

I am exempt from that rule because I wrote this post before the school year started so that I could post it quickly during a break!

Besides, there’s no way I can continue working during a cat-imposed break:

See?

:p

Peace,

~Pindari

Rant Time & Update

Salvete Amici,

Rant:

Yesterday I got a facebook friend request.  From my sister’s friends.  From a 12 year old.

Now, I don’t know about you, but this felt morally wrong to me.  Why?

1)  Facebook is a place where stupid mistakes happen.  It’s so easy, when you’re a tween, to put out too much personal information, get into facebook fights, post pictures you’ll regret, etc.,.  The list goes on.  Even my dad posts things that he regrets, and he’s middle-aged.

2)I really don’t think it’s a place that young tweens should be wasting their time on.  I didn’t even get a facebook until last year, and I don’t think it majorly revolutionized my life in any way…  There are so many more meaningful things a kid can be doing that trolling through their friend’s friends’ pages.

3)  Most importantly, my sister is not allowed to have a facebook.  And if I ‘friend’ her friend it would be like saying, I don’t respect a) the facebok regulations (ages 13 and up only) but mostly b) my parent’s beliefs and parenting ideas.

Anyway, maybe I’m just old-fashioned…  : /

Update:

Wow, so many things have happened!  In no particular order-

1)  My Biology teacher wears a different tie every class and I just think that’s so cool.  I decided to get one too.  Holla if you like the girl-wearing-tie fashion!

2)  My Dad had to leave today.  He’s going to be in another country for three months!  😦  I’m really going to miss him, but it’s for his job so I guess that’s good.  I also wish I could go with him 😀  I want to travel!!  But yeah, I’m a little sad today…

3)  Not to promote myself but––I made a picture the day before yesterday and  I’m really proud of it…!

4)  I’m going to be singing in a recital at a Nursing Home pretty soon.  I feel like it’s such a wonderful thing to bring young people and music into the lives of these seniors so I’m pretty excited.

5)  I attended an online college fair about studying in Canada, and decided to apply to yet another school.  I know, I know, I said 11 schools is enough but it was a good deal.  Here’s why:

a) The application fee was $24 dollars (as opposed to $75 for American colleges).

b) Studying in Canada is overall WAY cheaper than studying in the US.

c) The application process is quick.  No essays, or teacher recommendations.  It’s a dream come true.

d) I’m worried that I won’t get accepted anywhere!!!!  I just had too!!  Just in case!!!

e) This particular school notifies you if you’ve been accepted 3-4 days after you apply!!

f) I’ve always wanted to go to Canada.  This school is Nova Scotia which is supposed to be a gem.

Phew!

Give yourself a high-five if you survived this post!

As for me, I should go do some homework…

Peace 😉

~Pindari