The Internet ≠ Your Life

The internet can be a depressing place.

It’s easy to fall into bad habits, especially when you’re part of a social networking site, or a blog.  These habits include wondering how your friends got so many friends while scrolling through their list, checking your own viewer stats, wondering why famous Youtubers got famous, Googling lots of SUPER talented people on Google, and then feeling untalented.  The internet is just too helpful.  It shows you exactly what you wanted to see.

What it doesn’t show you, however, is that those “talented” people make up only 2% of a world full of others who are staring at their screens, wondering why their lives didn’t turn out so great.  And it doesn’t tell you that the talented people might have nothing more to their lives than their one “5 minutes of fame” trick.  It also doesn’t tell you that the famous people didn’t just become famous instantly.  It took years sometimes, even lifetimes.  And they weren’t born talented.  They had to get up and learn their trick.  Google doesn’t explain that to you.

Second-guessing myself

You have to figure that out yourself.

Unfortunately, even though I know these things, I fall into the trap myself.  I like to think of myself as an active person.  I do not watch things passively, I try to imitate, do, surpass!  But watching my favorite Youtube band, Cimorelli, I often feel hopeless.  It seems like they can just burst into harmonized song, have a great time without even trying, sing amazingly, and dance with feeling!  Then I get inspired, try to make a music video, and realize that it’s a total mess.

How do they make it seem so effortless?

But then I realize, hey, they have real microphones, real equipment, brothers who play background music for them, and years of practice singing together.  And I’m trying to make a soundtrack in five minutes!  No wonder it’s hard!

But even though I realize this, I’m still a little disappointed.  I mean, if I can’t make a video that they’ll see, how will I ever meet them!!?

But that’s a different story all together 😀

Peace,

~Pindari

Wintertime

Wow. So lots of things have happened as of TODAY!

I have so many things to say, I don’t know where to start…

What’s happened:

1)  I took my last exam at Bard, so that means schooltime is officially over!  Yay!  (That doesn’t mean I’ll stop learning though :p  In my homeschooling program we do online lesson though the breaks).  2)  Binghamton University notified me that my application was complete, and they are going to start looking it over…  3)  My Dad and I went on our first shopping trip of the season.  4)  I filmed some video auditions to send to a summer program.  5)  New subscriber!  Yay!

Okay so not much really happened.  I guess it just felt like it did!

Advice:

You knew there was going to be one 🙂  My tip for the day is–  Don’t apply to more than 10 colleges.  Not only is it extremely difficult (for your parents if you’re homeschooled, and they have to act as counselor) and stressful (for you), but you can’t apply for financial aid for all of them.  That’s right.  The FAFSA website says “choose up to ten schools.”  If you have eleven… like me, then you’ll just have to hope you can afford the eleventh when the time comes.

But now it’s done.  And it’s late, so I must be off!

Peace,

~Pindari

Last Minute Things

Big piece of advice for the highschool senior: don’t decide to apply to Harvard just or fun. So you’re sitting there, you just sent in all your other applications, and you’re riding on an emotional high because you’re DONE!

You think, Hey, I wonder what the Harvard app is alike?  You search for it.  Find it.  Click on it.  FIll it out, and realize it’s actually super easy compared to some other ones (only one supplemental essay and some background questions about you).  You think, Hey, why not?  What if?  Click send.

Now that was a major mistake.

Before I started the college application process, I didn’t know how money-centric it was!  Every SAT you send after your first four free are $11.  College applications cost upward of $50 each.  So you just sent a $75 application for a school you probably won’t get into.  Well… I did.  So now that I’ve actually payed for this thing, I have to come through, making an Audio CD of my musical supplement and asking for an extra recommendation.  If I had just thought about this a little more my poor parents wouldn’t need to pay so much, I wouldn’t have to provide supplemental materials, and I could move onto more important things like, not failing finals!

Also, if I don’t get in, I won’t ever be able to apply again, for, say Grad school.

Ahh well…  Can’t cry over spilt milk, right?

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On a separate note, I just opened a deviantART.com account!  Check it out… (fave and watch!!)

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I keep daydreaming that I might meet one of the Cimorelli sisters in college and become best buds 😀

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Thanks for reading,

~Pindari