Winter Update

Salvete Amici!

Sorry for the late update; finals were rough!  My chemistry was a little easier though because I found out that I didn’t need to take second semester chem, and I wasn’t as nervous about my grade.

I’m living on campus again for almost 3 weeks.  My college has two special freshman  programs, and this is the second one, Citizen Science.  The idea of CitSci is to teach all the students to be intelligent information seekers when it comes to science, as oppose to passively accepting what we see online or in the media.

So far, it’s fun, and my roommate is really nice!  The campus walkways are slippery, and the food is terrible, but I’m happy to see my friends again!  Oh, and my driving is getting better!  No license yet, though…

Well, I’m off to breakfast!



Guess What?

It was fine.  In fact, the night that I wrote that last post, I went to an orientation panel where all the PC’s (Peer Counselors) basically told us that they had the same feelings as me.  Some of them didn’t even meet their friends until after freshman orientation.

As you can tell, I’m feeling better.  I have met a really special friend, and some other really great friends who make me feel happy every day!

There isn’t much time for me to write, but I can’t wait to tell you about my ‘college experience.’

One tip:

-Get a bike.  Your legs will thank you!


Alright, I really have to go and finish my essay.



Valentine’s Day Blues

Salvete Amici,

So the funny thing is… I keep forgetting it’s going to be Valentine’s Day!  And I was brainstorming what  should write for the occasion, but this deviant got there ahead of me.  His name is mind-crash, and I wanted to share his thouhgts with you, since I couldn’t have said it better:

With Valentine’s quickly approaching. I am sure everyone is going throw emotional waves of love and hatred for the occasion.

I definitely run into a LOT of different moods during this time of the year, and to be honest, most of them are extremely bitter, and it surprises me. I think it’s because most of us grow up in a black and white world. We’re told Valentine’s Day iskyuteheart_by_mind_crash-d5u3a6z for Lovers and we must buy them expensive things like Diamonds DIAMONDS SPENCE DIAMONDS or we simply aren’t serious about loving them. And sometime’s it’s easy for some people to get stuck in what they’ve been taught instead of broaden their horizons and open up to our world that is constantly changing. And to tell you the truth as long as we allow for change, it will happen, change can’t just STOP.

Your life and your world is how you choose to live it. How you choose to enjoy it. So why let such a silly small occasion, such as Valentine’s day, get you down?

Because the holiday reminds you that you are forever alone? But how true is that? Just because you don’t have a lover we_can_change_the_world_by_mind_crash-d5nslf4holding your hand? What about your friends? Family? Or even co-workers? There’s a tons of people who care about you, and I am sure there are tons of people you care about. And if this isn’t the case. Maybe it’s time for you to stop being so afraid and open up your own heart. Sure it may get hurt… in fact, I guarantee it will probably get hurt at least a few times, everyone’s heart can hurt. But we can’t be afraid of pain and we can’t be afraid to live.

In my opinion that’s what Valentine’s Day is all about.

It’s about taking that step.
To love yourself, despite all of your flaws
To love the people around you, despite how much some have this bad habit that you just can’t stand.
To grow and learn in love, because love no matter what anyone says is the hardest subject.

I know this is not “historically correct” but neither is any of the merchandise. Or most holidays for that matter. But like I said, what you make out of life is how you create it. And it’s your choice to take on the positive or the negative.

If you liked the above post, you can visit mind-crash’s deviantART page here.



The Internet ≠ Your Life

The internet can be a depressing place.

It’s easy to fall into bad habits, especially when you’re part of a social networking site, or a blog.  These habits include wondering how your friends got so many friends while scrolling through their list, checking your own viewer stats, wondering why famous Youtubers got famous, Googling lots of SUPER talented people on Google, and then feeling untalented.  The internet is just too helpful.  It shows you exactly what you wanted to see.

What it doesn’t show you, however, is that those “talented” people make up only 2% of a world full of others who are staring at their screens, wondering why their lives didn’t turn out so great.  And it doesn’t tell you that the talented people might have nothing more to their lives than their one “5 minutes of fame” trick.  It also doesn’t tell you that the famous people didn’t just become famous instantly.  It took years sometimes, even lifetimes.  And they weren’t born talented.  They had to get up and learn their trick.  Google doesn’t explain that to you.


Second-guessing myself

You have to figure that out yourself.

Unfortunately, even though I know these things, I fall into the trap myself.  I like to think of myself as an active person.  I do not watch things passively, I try to imitate, do, surpass!  But watching my favorite Youtube band, Cimorelli, I often feel hopeless.  It seems like they can just burst into harmonized song, have a great time without even trying, sing amazingly, and dance with feeling!  Then I get inspired, try to make a music video, and realize that it’s a total mess.

How do they make it seem so effortless?

But then I realize, hey, they have real microphones, real equipment, brothers who play background music for them, and years of practice singing together.  And I’m trying to make a soundtrack in five minutes!  No wonder it’s hard!

But even though I realize this, I’m still a little disappointed.  I mean, if I can’t make a video that they’ll see, how will I ever meet them!!?

But that’s a different story all together 😀